Friday, February 26, 2010
为什么？？？
为什么我就这么的执着，到现在我还不能放下或忘记。眼泪还是不听使唤想要从我的脸上滑下，无论我怎样安慰自己要坚强我的心还是一样痛，他的影响真的对我这么大吗？我竟然没察觉到一直是他改变了我，连我的生活习惯也因为而他改变了。本来所有我不喜欢的东西也因为他才喜欢每次听到他喜欢的歌喜欢的东西我的心就会痛起来眼泪也想流出来。每次想要找人倾诉却没人要听因为每个人都在为自己的生活忙碌，他们都以为我一直都拥有开朗与乐观的心态，所以自然而然就以为我是可以渡过这情伤，就连我的辅导老师都没注意到我因为这些痛苦带给我的伤害，还一直问我为什么我廋了，笑容也变少了一直沉默寡言。我自己也不知道从何时起我会变成这样，情绪一直不稳定不太想说话，不敢交朋友，对感情也失去了信心。尤其是交男性朋友也变得害怕了，不敢再与他们谈话那么久了，从我口中说的话也变得虚伪了，我是不敢再真心交男性朋友了吗？我的心真的因为他而封闭了起来吗？黄佩华，清醒吧！！！！唯一幸运的是，我所付出的真心让我交到一班从没放弃与疏远我的朋友，谢谢你们让我的生活多姿多彩。有时候我在想，是不是我拥有得太多或者我太贪心了？？
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Hey girl, cheer up! Do not judge yourself too early. You are really a cheerful and nice person. You deserve to get a better partner. Whatever that is happened just let it be. Give yourself some time to forget the unhappy incidents. So, at this moment, concentrate in studies first yea~ +u +u *hugs* ^^
Trust me. I went through the same thing like what you are having now. I bet mine was even more serious than yours. I think I have told you.
There were some times I could hardly speak with people and afraid of everyone, not only him. My emotion had been greatly affected and almost need to get some physcho consultation. But who I turned out to be now? Still a normal person, but with stronger emotion control.
Time is the best medicine
Thanks to you all for supporting me all the time. I should be feeling lucky because i still have my friends here to accompany me and support me. During this period is a bit suffer,but i think i can recover as time passed. Hope everything will be ok and won't affect my studies. I really don't hope that my parents will get disappointed on me and make them worried of me. I will try to use this reason to wake me up from this suffered and pain relationship.
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